First Blog

 This is my first blog and I am already feeling the relief an knowing how helpful this journey is going to be! I would like to focus on balance yes that's right B A L A N C E. With starting back working, family, relationship and just over all self care. I am a overall happy person and I sure can not complain, but when it comes to balance it is very stressful and depressing at times. Family- I haven't had much of the normal "family" experience. My mom passed when I was 18 years old and from there I took care of my younger siblings. They are now young adults and no longer talk to me. I am not sure why all I ever done was be good to them, took them in when no one else wanted to but now its no communication at all. I have a family of my own now 2 kids one boy one girl and a loving partner, but I do miss the full family experience. Relationship- me and my partner have been together for quite some time we have to beautiful kids together and he makes me very happy. At times I feel as if I don't deserve him because he such a good person and I can be a little mean at times. He makes me feel happy but I wonder at times if I make him feel the same? I say this because he is my backbone no matter what he ALWAYS make sure that I am ok, always asking if I need anything, he is truly my backbone. Not sure where I would be if it were not for him. He is always so busy worrying about me I rarely get to check on him.Self care- I know I have been feeling down and out do to no luck of finding the job I want so I did have to settle. But hey an income is an income right? I have a lot of time to myself because I'm really not an outspoken person (introvert alert). I really try to connect with people but I really have no trust due to things that happened when my mom pasted. Hope I am not boring anyone this will just be my outlet where I can hopefully get some positive feedback and help with this whole balancing thing. Well bye for now I will be back soon.

-KP